31st December 2009

So, today will be the last day of 2009. To come to think of it 365 days isn't that long after all.
But yet, a whole lot has happened. Both good and bad. The greatest lost would be my grandmother. The grandmother which I adored so much, the grandmother who taught me a whole lot of things which even my mother could not teach and the grandmother who took great care of me ever since I was a baby. The thoughts of her are still fresh in my mind. There was this once, I stayed over at mount alvernia to take care of her, and that was my only time I took care of her overnight, i didn't sleep a wink till she slept and all i remember doing was looking at how she slept, sleep-talking and the nicest part was she held my hands while sleeping she didnt let go of it. Althought there wasn't a picture of that i still remember that day very clearly. I'll never forget that wonderful moment ever. Your an angel granny. You know, at least I have a million pictures which I can look at and think about her. I thank god for making me a camwhore. Many have asked me, why the hell do you take pictures which you have already taken, my answer would be, memories. You'll never know when they'll leave you. It's better than having nth of them with you. But whatever it is, this year would be the first year that granny wouldn't be with us physically but i believe her good soul would be present there later at aunt's place. Although granny is gone, i hope that our family won't be apart.

& granny, i got my license 2 days before you left us, i promised ya once that ill drive ya one day. which then again i didnt get to do but i hope your proud of me and ill remember what you said that night at home. you told me drive safely, don't speed and think of god before you drive.

Anyway, I still wanna thank god for these wonderful people who made my 2009 a great one (:

                                                      my bestie, i'll never ever forget ya

 

& many more. (: just that i dont have time to upload anymore pic.

anyways i love you guys, god bless.

Netball Camp; 15-17th Dec.

Finally, i've got sufficient time to blog.

1) FML. Life sucks. Some people are just here in this very complicated world to make people suffer.
This is what you call inconsiderate self-centered bastards. I vow never to meet such people again. Ohmygosh, I don't really get what kind of pleasure they get by interferring in other's life? Like come on, go get a life yourself istead of bothering about mine dude. Tsk.

2) My holiday for 3 weeks have started not too long back. And I also just returned home from my netball camp not too back too. Hah. Ouhgosh, the first day wa dreadful initially cause we had beep test. And I thought I was going to fail terribly bt nope. I did just fine. And I was happy it ended pretty fast although before that we were all praying that the radio wouldn't work and that they wouldn't diagnose the problem the radio was giving but ouh well they figured it out sooner or later. & for the rest of the day we played floorball and had training after that. We had McSpicy for supper and Agora sucks. It's so freaking had to breath man. I shared sleeping bag with Sonia which turned out fine, which I thought she will pull it from me.
The second day, another dreadful morning. We had to run 5km within 45 mins. Which I thought we could have made it through if everyone as motivated to run. I am VERY proud of myself okay. I ran without stopping and endured till the end. I really thought my stamina dropped drastically and I wouldn't be able to complete even 1.5km but nope, I ran well. And the rest of the day went well too, we had a match with SMU and the seniors, which i think i did okkkayy. Coach said I was hardworking but i still need to watch. Which I think I still suck luh hahah! Anyways, that night went awesome, gift xchange, food, jokes it was really great.
And i shared sleeping bag with joce which i regretted! HAH! she snatched it all away from me and i was shivering shitballs! & then day 3 was carnival. omg, no comments on that and came home straight.

3) I curled my hair, bad choice. Idk if ill rebon it back. ): here's a pic if you want to see how bad i look.

That's me @ daddy's office for the very first time. (:

& that's me again finally modelling with the apple jan gave me.

Told ya my hair was messy. But i guess finally it has volume?

4) What to do for the holidays?

Excercise. Improve my stupid stamina. Shop. Prepare for Christmas. Spend it all with the Parents.

JESIE KAUR, WHERE IS YR CONFIDENCE?
Omg, I, Jesie Kaur feels like a loser okay!?
1) I lost my freaking stamina? Usually I can run 3km without stopping but just now after 678382359 years later, I decided run again cause I needed to build up my freaking stamina again, BUT guess what?
At 1.5km I was so tired I stopped! Loser right!? Wth? I was so freaking dissappointed in myself.

2) At training today, we did lots and lots of court training. Although coach thought i did better today i still think i suck? Hah! Why? Simple, cause i lost confidence in myself. I keep telling myself I can't and it really ended up the way i thought. Everyone was telling me like believe in yourself and stop thinking negatively and everything will be fine. But wth? It just couldn't register in my mind! But anyway i'm going try to build my confidence bit by bit again.

3) Finally, I missed all those who quit. ): Esp, Aidah, Kimo & Seri.

It's 11.38am, i'm in class thinking if I should actually go partial. I barely slept last night. I had a choice to go out with my brother yesterday and i decided to go because firstly, he rarely asks me out and secondly, he has gone to serve the nation today. So yea, I followed him and his very nice friends to timbre (: Everything was awesome it wasn't as bad as home club with his friends. Yes, so now i'm trying to get myself to stay awake.

& actually as a matter of fact I still can't accept the fact that you've gone to NS alr. It felt like just a few years back that we were talking about how mummy's going to wait outside yr camp with food and to help ya wash yr clothes cause yr just so spoilt by her. You've really grown a whole lot bro. You have changed alot through the years too. But i still love ya as my brother. Each time we are out, I can see that you really take great care of me. Even yest, when Ja offered me you actually jumped in to say "NO! I SWEAR I'LL RAMBAK YOUR FACE" and that made me think back about those times when we fought so blady much and i used to hate that. Thank you for always being there for me. Getting into trouble because of me and whatever not. Have fun at camp. (: xoxo.

Anyway, Janrez popped by my class at around 11 plus? And omg, that boy is so cute. He had like 5-6 helium balloons with a card attached below for this girl he wanted to date and I had to be his help. Haha! He only wants me when he needs help. Such an ass I would say. But, i still adore him so much. My best friend from high school, and I hope we treasure this friendship that we have for a verry long time. I want you to be my best man if I were to ever get married okay!

P.S: That picture was taken last year okay, so it may look damn bad.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GATAL!

Finally, you are 20. Firstly, this is like my first time wishing ya happy birthday cause i just got to know ya this year. And, i'm really glad to have known ya. Thank you cousin. (: I hope you enjoy yr day today with the gang and remember what I said, your birthday may come every year but it's only once you turn 20 so enjoy it. Don't waste it. (:

xoxo!